In all this chaos, we found safety.

So I've finished schooling forever.

2010-11-19T00:43:00.001+08:00

I know I should feel relief or happiness or something.
But I just feel tired.

So because .gifs can express any mood...

2010-11-09T19:10:00.001+08:00

Chemistry exam tomorrow.

I wish there was romance in science.

2010-10-31T22:08:00.001+08:00

But there isn't.

Physics leaving exam tomorrow. The last exam for Physics in my schooling career.
Wish me luck!

Something good happened to me!

2010-10-25T00:04:00.002+08:00

I got accepted into Perspectives!

Year 12 Perspectives is an exhibition which displays and recognises the magnificent achievements of Year 12 TEE Art and Art and Design students from across Western Australia, and has grown to be one of the Gallery’s most popular exhibitions. It is a celebration of the talents and creativity of our next generation of artists and provides audiences with a unique opportunity to see the world through the eyes of today’s youth.

I felt totally sick.
In a good way.

Legal methods to happiness.

2010-10-16T19:30:00.002+08:00

I felt down so I spent the entire night last night scanning, editing, and removing the text from this image (originally the cover of The West Australian's TODAY) to show people.

I feel fantastic.

They gave you a heart, they gave you a name.

2010-10-13T21:46:00.001+08:00

It has not been a good week.

2010-10-12T21:58:00.000+08:00

Brilliant.

2010-10-06T12:56:00.002+08:00

A softer world.

2010-10-05T11:51:00.003+08:00

This is perfect. Absolutely perfect.

Solitude is impractical, yet society is fatal.

2010-10-02T23:48:00.002+08:00

Inappropriate fantasies for the steady-minded.

2010-09-27T23:37:00.002+08:00

I really wouldn't.

And I love that little game that you play.

2010-09-27T22:51:00.002+08:00

The holidays have started, and I am bored.

2010-09-26T15:06:00.003+08:00

Sherlock... ;)
John... :D!

The female gaze.

2010-09-24T02:46:00.000+08:00

I concur.

So married.

2010-09-22T23:28:00.001+08:00

Hahahaha.
Oh, John. ♥

"And since yesterday, you've moved in with him and now you're solving crimes with him. Might we expect a happy announcement by the end of the week?"
- Mycroft. Trufax.

Chemistry exam tomorrow, you say? No way.
Keeping my priorities in mind, you see.

Picture-perfect.

2010-09-21T22:46:00.001+08:00

A gorgeous shot of a gorgeous man.

Dat hair.

2010-09-20T22:41:00.000+08:00

Okay, now I'm just spamming. :D

Oh, I am filled with glee. And this is why.

2010-09-19T19:31:00.002+08:00

Yeeeeeaaahhhhhh. ♥

This is fact, not fiction.

2010-09-19T13:03:00.001+08:00

Dat shirt.

2010-09-19T01:44:00.001+08:00

What has my life been reduced to.
B-but it's so glorious, I can't even-

A fitting exam quote.

2010-09-17T21:24:00.000+08:00

Don’t let sleep overtake you, the world's awake within you.

2010-09-12T19:31:00.002+08:00

2010-09-09T22:30:00.002+08:00

This was so what they were thinking. :)

I will not apologize.

2010-09-09T17:58:00.000+08:00

Because this amuses to no end.

A work of art.

2010-09-08T21:17:00.002+08:00

This man is perfection.

2010-09-06T23:52:00.005+08:00

Gonna miss half of school tomorrow, and this is what I do.
Stay up until midnight, dizzy on happiness and YouTube and Benedict.

“I knew that I had come face to face with some one whose mere
personality was so fascinating that, if I allowed it to do so,
it would absorb my whole nature, my whole soul,
my very art itself.” - Oscar Wilde

Growing old.

2010-09-04T22:01:00.004+08:00

So I've changed the layout again, making it easier to obtain previous posts. Although god knows why you'd want to, or why I would want to, for that matter. Take my second ever post on this blog (June 13, 2006):

I borrowed 'Just Like Heaven' on DVD but since our DVD player conked out, we can't play it (ahhh!). Oh, and this cough I've been having is so bad. We don't even have Strepsils at home. WHAT KIND OF FAMILY DOESN'T HAVE STREPSILS AT HOME??? I mean, seriously.

What an exciteable, but perfectly normal, 13 year old I was. Haha, I really haven't changed much, except for, perhaps, a greater sense of self-awareness and a wider range of vocabulary.

I fantasise that maybe, one day, this blog will because a valuable source of research for, I don't know, a transformation from a child's psyche to an almost-adult's.
Um... ew. Yeah, maybe not.

But onto more important things...

John: I’m glad no one saw that.
Sherlock: Hmm?
John: You, ripping my clothes off in a darkened swimming pool, people might talk.
Sherlock: People do little else.

Gosh, these two cheer me up like nothing else right now. (Especially snatched right out of context!)
I am such a nerd burger. 8D

Sleep in our clothes and wait for winter to leave.

2010-09-03T20:56:00.001+08:00

I wish I could sleep, wake up, and stop feeling tired forever.

An interesting case.

2010-09-01T23:04:00.002+08:00

Sherlock: Are you alright?
John: Of course I’m alright.
Sherlock: You have just killed a man.
John: I’ve seen men die before - good men, friends of mine. Thought I’d never sleep again. I’ll sleep fine tonight.
Sherlock: Quite right.

So I have been sleeping less, but feeling more awake throughout the entire day, this past week. Could it be that the constant anticipation and general euphoria experienced when ~~stalking~~ thinking about the BBC Sherlock fandom is providing me with the necessary energy for me to continue living more effectively? Hmmm... Very likely.

THE SECOND LAW OF THERMODYNAMICS.

2010-08-31T22:38:00.003+08:00

Obligatory Sherlock .gifs to close down tonight.

Sherlock: ...Requires quite a bit of contortion.
Sherlock, 1x02 - “The Blind Banker”

EYES. *___*

❒ Taken ❒ Single ✔ Pining after fictional characters

2010-08-30T20:41:00.004+08:00

Sherlock: "Just tell me what happened from the beginning."
Barry: "We've been to a bar, a nice place, and I was chattin' with one of the waitresses and Karen weren't happy with that, so we got back to the hotel and ended up having a bit of a ding dong, didn't we? She was gettin' at me, saying I weren’t a real man-- "
Sherlock: "Wasn’t."
Barry: "What?"
Sherlock: "It’s not weren’t, it’s wasn’t."
Barry: "Oh..."
Sherlock: "Go on."
Barry: "Well, then I don’t know how it happened but suddenly there's a knife in my hands. And you know, my old man was a butcher so I know how to handle knives. He learned us how to cut up a piece-- "
Sherlock: "Taught."
Barry: "What?"
Sherlock: "Taught you how to cut up a piece."
Barry: "Yeah, well, then I done it."
Sherlock: "Did it."
Barry: "I stabbed her over and over and over and I looked at her and she weren’t-- ... wasn't movin' no more. Any more."

Barry: "Hey, you gotta help me, Mr. Holmes! Everyone says you're the best. Without you... I'll get hung for this."
Sherlock: "No, no, Mr. Bewick, not at all. Hanged, yes."

What is this I don't even. An intelligent man with perfect grammar.
Hnnng. Sherlock.

sherlocksherlocksherlocksherlock

2010-08-29T19:38:00.005+08:00

One word: neccesary.

Oh, God.

2010-08-28T19:47:00.003+08:00

Sherlock: What do real people have, then, in their real lives?
John: Friends? People they know, people they like, people they don’t like. Girlfriends, boyfriends…
Sherlock: Like I was saying, dull.
John: You don’t have a girlfriend, then.
Sherlock: Girlfriend, no. Not really my area.
John: [beat] Alright. Do you have a boyfriend?
Sherlock: [finally looks at John]
John: -Which is fine, by the way.
Sherlock: I know it’s fine.
John: [smiles] So you’ve got a boyfriend.
Sherlock: -No.
John: Right. Okay. You’re not attached. Just like me. Fine. Good.

OMGGG. THE WORST TIME TO GET ADDICTED TO A TV SHOW.
BBC Sherlock - watch it now!

Benedict Cumberbatch is amazingly lovely, by the way.

Just for kicks.

2010-08-21T22:44:00.005+08:00

The Sims 3 Promotional Trailer.

Join a...

... cheeky red-head...

...an athletic brunet and...

...a charming blond (in a tuxedo!) in an adventure of a lifetime.

Will she achieve...

...self-fulfilment?

...family?

...romance?

See it all.
The Sims 3 movie. Coming soon.

... OH MAI GAWD!! I'm so excited!!

THE SIMS 3. (TM)

Jesus Christ. I've just spent, like, hours on this. Finally hitting the bottom of the procrastination tank. These are all my Sims, but photoshopped slightly. :P AREN'T THEY BEAUTIFUL?
Yeah? Get jealous. Get The Sims.

Aime-moi moins, mais aime-moi longtemps.

2010-08-20T20:38:00.006+08:00

"Mon lit comme une banquise qui fond quand tu m'enlaces.
Plus rien n'est triste, plus rien n'est grave."

My bed of ice melts when you hold me,
Nothing is sad, nothing is serious.

(Ma Mémoire Sale - Les Chansons D'amour)

Love me less, but love me for a long time.

2010-08-17T22:36:00.001+08:00

♥ Les Chansons D’Amour, 2007.

2010-08-15T22:14:00.001+08:00

Lovely noise that makes you love me.

2010-08-10T22:33:00.001+08:00

Finally out of this funk.
...And all it took was exercise.

pictures for sad children.

2010-08-07T09:56:00.000+08:00

so

2010-08-06T16:57:00.002+08:00

I had a bad test experience today, and I will feel horrible for days.

A (much needed) poetic spin on Physics.

2010-08-02T16:31:00.004+08:00

"It is the most poetic thing I know about the universe.
The amazing thing is that every atom in your body came from a star that exploded, and the atoms in your left hand probably came from a different star than your right hand. It really is the most poetic thing I know about physics, you are all star dust. You couldn’t be here if stars hadn’t exploded, because the elements the carbon, nitrogen, the oxygen, the iron; all the things that matter for evolution weren’t created at the begining of time, they were created at the nuclear furnaces of stars and the only way they could get into your body if the stars were kind enough to explode. So, forget Jesus. The stars died so that you could be here today."
- Lawrence Krauss

The family of multiple makeovers.

2010-08-01T00:17:00.003+08:00

I think we all knew this was coming:
SIMS 3 SPAM! :D

This is Aurora Trinity (lulz, cliche anyone). I made her lifetime wish to be a Gold-digger so...

... I made her prey on old dudes!

Still excited about the marriage.

and POSE.

She really has the loveliest expressions...

She's pregnant and ready to puke, and her husband's smitten. (I gave him a makeover, of course.) TRULOVE.

*smirk*

MODEL FAMILY. :D ♥

Too much?

Nawww, little Finn. (:

Love me mercilessly.

2010-07-22T18:26:00.003+08:00

Obligatory image spam filled with the male form to cheer everybody up following this miserable excuse of a week:

:)

It's a perfect day to throw back your head and kiss it all goodbye.

2010-07-10T14:40:00.002+08:00

My Mother bought me caster sugar, butter, and plain flour for me, specially, today because I wanted to bake. Then I found out we were two eggs short for my chocolate chip cookies. She's gone out again.

I love my Mama. ♥ :)

why am i even here?

2010-07-05T21:13:00.003+08:00

So I'm sitting in the classroom for holiday tuition, learning about the wonders of Chemistry and Physics and its relation in the world, and I realise that, wow, I honest-to-God have absolutely no interest in the physical or chemical makeup of the universe and that I will never pursue a career in which I have to explore this.

Studying for final exams off to a good start.

school's ouuuuut~

2010-07-02T19:21:00.000+08:00

Cheerful.

2010-06-30T16:58:00.002+08:00

Happy 300th post! (:

And the end of term is coming so close I can taste it.

when the world gets old.

2010-06-19T22:17:00.001+08:00

2010-06-17T16:42:00.000+08:00

Be nice to anyone to get what you want.

Lovely self-destruction.

2010-06-12T17:17:00.001+08:00

Homework today 9am-5pm.

HECK YES SPONGEBOB.

2010-06-02T21:05:00.001+08:00

DONE WITH EXAMS. :D

2010-06-02T20:57:00.001+08:00

2010-06-01T22:12:00.002+08:00

cyanide & happiness.

2010-05-31T22:17:00.001+08:00

AND IT DIDN'T MATTER THAT I THOUGHT THE AMERICAN FLAG WAS AN AUSSIE ONE IN THE ART EXAM.
IT WAS ONLY WORTH 5 MARKS, RIGHT?
... Right?

Gosh, darn it.

2010-05-27T21:48:00.001+08:00

beauty supreme. yeah, you were right about me.

2010-05-26T23:30:00.002+08:00

Life needs more:

Love...

... and laughs. ;D

i'll keep them still.

2010-05-25T22:35:00.003+08:00

So I'm pretty happy.
I love compliments.

the wild thing

2010-05-24T22:11:00.002+08:00

I'm burning like a bridge for your body

2010-05-23T22:42:00.002+08:00

So... Maths exam tomorrow.
These cheer me up just a little.

The Lost Thing

2010-05-20T20:11:00.001+08:00

Today is the tomorrow you were promised yesterday.

Test... test... test... test... oh? life?... test...

2010-05-20T20:06:00.001+08:00

Sometimes, you just get sick of learning.

We could all be a little happier.

2010-05-16T13:30:00.000+08:00

the world is a mess.

2010-03-17T18:05:00.000+08:00

Set 1: Gases

2010-03-13T13:23:00.003+08:00

Why, oh why is Maths and Physics and Chemistry so difficult?
I understand it is important in the advancement of mankind.
I just wish the world revolved around Art.

And just to cheer myself up:

ily, canon in movie. ♥

Until I realise that it was you who held me under.

2010-03-05T21:52:00.001+08:00

Not coming to Japanese Orals tomorrow.
I cried for so long.

Yum, yum.

2010-02-26T22:32:00.004+08:00

Sherlock Holmes was funnnnn today. :D

And the film screams for it...
...HOLMES/WATSON PICSPAM!! Yes, sir. (:

Graceful pose, Jude.

Awesome light is clearly shining here.

Aaah.

Hmmm?

Tee hee. ♥

YESSSSSS. *_*

I love how I amuse myself so easily. :D

What am I?

2010-02-24T20:44:00.001+08:00

Because I just feel like disappointment.

+1

2010-02-21T17:14:00.001+08:00

What's with everyone? Year 12 sucks so far.

ooh...

2009-08-05T21:08:00.000+08:00

Inside joke. ;P

2009-08-02T10:27:00.002+08:00

I want to know someone who wants to know me.

"The sound of loneliness makes me happier."

2009-07-31T20:33:00.007+08:00

[Poison oak, some boyhood bravery
When the telephone was a tin can on a string
And I fell asleep with you still talking to me
You said you weren't afraid to die
In polaroids you were dressed in women's clothes
Were you made ashamed, why'd you lock them in a drawer?
Well, I don't think that I ever loved you more.]
poison oak - bright eyes.

Taekwondo last night, dragged myself along with a muscle sprain in a left calf. Kicked half-heartedly, earned an undeserved kicking stripe. (Haha.) Kick-boxing next door to us and Taekwondo people collided to form some really unfair sparring one-on-one matches. One of the younger 'men' was so enthusiastic in actually hitting me, he fell down when he attempted to kick. I said a 'Are you okay?', and he must have felt embarrassed. Had to spar with some really pretty woman with an oval face and a light, slim build. Ended up accidentally kicking her in the groin and punching her in the face, and felt like a complete asshole, because it was supposed to be non-contact. Formed a group with a Muslim man to practice kicks. If he was a Dad, which I suspected him to be, he is one heck of a cool one. I'm envious. Sort of a roller-coaster of emotions that night.

Art: Idea fully formed, sketches and contemplating to do.
English: Sorry... what? Picture to paint, analysis to write? I didn't hear you.
Japanese: I just don't care any more.
Physics: My desk is full of write-ups I started and haven't finished.
Chemistry: My desk is full of write-ups I haven't even started.
Maths: Test Friday. I do not even want to think about this.

On a more happier note, snatched a copy of the picture book 'The Rabbits' from the Claremont Library, whooping inside, incredulous that no one else has taken it, and found a WHOLE BOOK with PICTURES about Cubism for my oral presentation on art movements. I have no excuse not to do well in this now. Damn it.

And tomorrow going to the Wesley river cruise. Who am I kidding, really.

GG-esque

2009-07-15T20:56:00.003+08:00

Updates
X got his hair cut short, and looks so much more mature. (Although he still grunts like a moose.)
Y is really cute. Now we know he attends Wednesday classes.
W is weird. And he's still staring.
Z is so damn skinny and pale, but has so much energy when sparring (since I've had first-hand experience).

"Oh, I'm missing your lips."

2009-07-07T22:06:00.010+08:00

[I'm crushing my heart into concrete
Graffiti up the sidewalks on your street]
skeleton - sparks the rescue

HOLIDAY TIEMZ.
... Yays. :)

And who has started their homework?! Not me!

To my credit, I did try. I spent like, 10 minutes shuffling my chemistry books and booklets to write up the 5 labs that were supposed to be completed 2-3 days after we performed the experiment, only to find that I left most of the experiment sheets and STAWA book at school. Hurray! Ah, my sarcastic enthusiasm never fails to surprise me.

Did taekwondo today. I know I haven't mentioned it in ages, but yes, it's still very fun. I'm even getting better at sparring. I know! Can you believe it? Haha. It feels strange to do taekwondo, and not have school afterwards to discuss any, er, incidents that, um, may have happened. *cough*

Have I mentioned this? I've graduated from the ~~n00by~~ white belt to yellow-1, then yellow-2! Meaning we have, like... 20 more gradings to go, haha. *DOOM* ... Yeah, it's been good.

Today, we started sparring. After the first few seconds of sparring with a red-black belt guy, he pulled me over and said, "When you kick or punch, make sure your opponent is in range. Otherwise your attacks will be useless." Yes. Wise words. That would've help a lot. T_T I don't think I was concentrating very hard. In the end, I got the hang of it, and got a few punches in. He said, "That was good!"... and I was kind of glowing. (:

I also had to spar with our instructor, Mr. Jeon. As always, it felt like he was laughing at me, because he kept dodging and all that jazz. I couldn't kick him - it was so frustrating! I think I only got, like, one or two kicks in. Especially at the end, when he paused to look at the clock: I took the chance to leap in and kick him. I don't think it counted. I felt guilty and said "sorry" (Yeah, because you're supposed to apologize to your attacker for hurting them) and he gave me a weird grin, like he knew I was desperate enough to cheat. Um, oops?

I know you're not supposed to do this, but I did get the feeling of superiority when sparring with white belts. Ugh, shame on me! :) I had to fake a look of concentration and indifference, when I was gleefully squealing inside. Hah. Sometimes it was difficult. I had to avert my eyes because some white belt, with curly hair and a face too wide for his features, kept staring at me. Usually, you look at people's feet, or their hands, to see where they're punching or kicking, but the guy was staring at my face! It was unnerving and weird.

Great overall. Creepy wide-headed guy was creepy. All in a day's work, really.

eye!rape

2009-07-01T22:22:00.002+08:00

~~WHAT IS THIS TOM-FOOLERY?? 8D~~

Oh, god. Someone stop me.
This is too much fun.

My Lord. Come. Call my name.

2009-06-21T15:11:00.003+08:00

GUUUUH. ♥
Kuroshitsujiiiii~
Latest chapter was WIN.
Actually, 'win' isn't enough to describe it. It was PURE WIN. YES. >D

I mean, how could you beat this scene?

It's not even some scene from a yaoi doujinshi. I KID YOU NOT. 8D
The liquid in his mouth is spew - not, um... something else.

...*awkward silence*

... D:

Of course I cut out the rest of the page, where Ciel said:

A-HA. What a way to ruin the moment.
...Is it wrong to enjoy this so much? xD

"Days dawning, skins crawling."

2009-06-19T23:45:00.006+08:00

[A friend in need's a friend indeed,
A friend with weed is better,
A friend with breasts and all the rest,
A friend who's dressed in leather.]
pure morning - placebo.

What you have on your computer can really say a lot about yourself.

Today, I checked that I had:
... Nearly 9GB of music,
... 8GB of manga,
... 300MB of pictures,
... (Only) 14MB of homework. 8D
... (And 200MB of Sims 2 Custom Content *cough*)

<3

I can't believe Mr. P is making us wait until Monday for our English exams. I heard the average was 57% and that thirty percent of the students failed. GIVE IT BACK ALREADY, ARGGGHH. Everyone I've talked to scored around the 60% region. Eep.

Can't believe he was sick. How convenient. Today, exchanged a passing glance with him and I swear he SMILED at me. (In that half second, I couldn't tell whether it was a don't-worry-you-did-okay-in-your-exam smile, or a i-must-pity-her smile.)

Also, I was sort of, kind of, in ~~the firing squad~~ a conversation between Mrs H. and someone. They were discussing (one-sided) the weather and, um, how this weather was like "summer in London". Ha... ha. I hate doing that lingering thing. It's awkward and uncomfortable and intrusive. Still hilarious to see how the conversation was carefully, and politely, cut short, though. :3

On a different note, I watched a documentary on SBS called Vixen Acedemy: How To Be A Bitch, two hours ago, on what women in Russia should do to marry a millionaire. I thought it would be amusing, à la Ladette to Lady. Alas, it was surprisingly tragic. Those women really have their heart bent on getting a man - no matter what it takes.

I also can't believe they had to eat a banana suggestively.
And, worse still, dance provocatively - in their underwear - to Britney Spears.

"And a word and a movement and a touch."

2009-06-13T22:17:00.006+08:00

[I want to drown beneath the waves
I want to dig myself a shallow grave
And hold you up for all to see
I want to cut you up, I want to watch you bleed, ever so slowly

You're so beautiful.]
homeboy - adorable.

Things I want to do before I die:

1. Share an apartment/house/living space with [a] room-mate(s).
2. ... and by myself.
3. Sky dive.
4. Finish a digital art piece and feel proud about it. ~~See it on the front page of Deviantart. D:~~
5. Play/own/conquer The Sims 3 on PC.
6. Have a successful job and career.
7. Have plenty of family ~~drama~~ time.
8. Feel young when I'm old.
9. Quit piano, dammnit.
10. Know that I did my best at Taekwondo - i.e. persevere, and not drop out of it due to laziness.
11. Stop reading so much fanfiction and manga, and have lower levels of obsession.
12. Read as much fanfiction and manga, and have the most amount of obsession as I am able to.
13. Personally know, and talk to, a gay person. Even if it's just once.
14. Tell people my secrets.
15. Believe in myself, and not anyone else.
16. Say goodbye to fake friends.
17. ... Cherish true ones.
(0. Meet a boy, and find love.)

I finished reading an epic.
An epic fanfiction, that is.
I spent, like, two days reading it and
OH, MY GOD.
HOW CAN FICTION ABOUT FICTIONAL CHARACTERS FROM ANOTHER FICTIONAL BOOK BE THIS GOOD?

The twist was just-- ARGH!
Dumbledore was the spyyyyyy! OOOOOH.
I sucked my breath in and stared, wide-eyed, at the screen for, like, 10 seconds...
My heart palpitated wildly...
My fingers clutched the mouse tightly, until my knuckles turned white...
... Yup, bloody exciting. 8D

The romance was also pretty.
... Eh-heh. :) ♥♥
~~No, it wasn't Dumbledore or anyone, you twit. :3~~

I was reading it from a .PDF, like a real book. I wish it was. It was long enough to be, anyway. Almost like a bootleg copy. Anyway, it's not on the internet anymore, which is why I was reading it so sneakily, because the author is actually going to be publishing a REAL book soon! :O

I understand why it was taken down. It definitely wouldn't go down so well if people found out that she wrote... that kind of fiction before. xDD

Went to eat waffles.
Got crepes instead.
Saw half a rat carcass on a low fence to the side of the pathway.
Looked ~~closely~~ in fascination.
Worms in the sand.
Went home.

"And I'll savor every moment of this."

2009-06-12T23:17:00.004+08:00

[Won't you think I'm pretty
When I'm standing top the bright lit city
And I'll take your hand and pick you up
And keep you there so you can see it.]
the taste of ink - the used.

I hate how your fingers burn when you first start a hot shower because there's not enough blood at the tips. It's amazing. Your fingers feel, like, three times hotter than your body. It burns.

I really shouldn't start posts with such weird and uncomfortable thoughts. Ha-ha.

But, for tonight, I was happy. Because it was the end of the exams. And I stopped caring at 12:15pm, and my last exam started at 12:30pm, so I feel alright. And, tomorrow, I'll be experiencing a get together, with waffles, for breakfast.

~~(Okay, who thought bad thoughts at "get together... with waffles"? HAHAHA. Oh, my. My mind's in the gutter. I'm in a strange, euphoric mood. Bugger, I can't take that back now.)~~

I'm excited.

um,

2009-06-10T13:44:00.002+08:00

Been mucking around on PaintTool SAI when should have been studying for art. Bleh, blargh, mergh. Same difference.

Tried my hand at semi-realism (sort of):

I did her entire face, but it looked yucky, so I cut it out. xD Eyes are so interesting to draaaaw. *_* I got bored in the middle and stopped working on her, which is why you see white spaces on the sides, haha.

The Feeling.

2009-06-08T11:13:00.004+08:00

~~I want this.~~

"I'm wasting my life, you're changing the world."

2009-06-01T15:25:00.004+08:00

[Well it's been a long slow collision,
I'm a pitbull, you're a dog,
Baby you're foul in clear conditions
But you're handsome in the fog.]
i need some fine wine and you, you need to be nicer - the cardigans.

Today I woke up and had an epiphany. Well, it was more like a realisation had crept up to me and hit me hard on my forehead.

I realised that I had four major exams coming up which I haven't even properly studied for. So I got up with a determined stance and a set expression, walked downstairs, quickly whipped up a burnt omelette and instant coffee, and sat down to complete the Year 11 Chemistry Exam 2007 for revision. And, for three hours straight, I did the exam.

I failed it.

Then I checked again and noticed a calculation error, so I recalculated.
Then I passed. Barely.

Fifty-seven percent. That's hardly anything to write home about. And to think Chemistry was the least of my worries out of Physics and Maths.

But now, I'm not caring. Went out to eat dim sum, stuffed myself silly on fried squid, came home, and typed up this post.

Um, study strategy?
Study everything you care about until you're fed up - then, hope for the best.

I need someone to yell at me to get a move on. To offer up a competition. To threaten, or blackmail.

Why aren't my parents on my case already?

"Every park bench screams your name... I kept your tie"

2009-05-29T20:16:00.009+08:00

[And I can see our days are becoming nights.
I could feel your heartbeat across the grass.
We should have run.
I would go with you anywhere.
I should have kissed you by the water]
i still remember - bloc party;

Ever had a day when several people at once told you that they stalked your blog and thought it "weird"? Hm. I understand the feeling... It was, like, life coming around in a strange, shaky, paranoid circle. So strange and shaky, in fact, that it probably looked like a diagram of bacteria or fungi. Um. Okay, I probably lost some of you in that image there.

Maybe you don't understand me.

I'm an average 16 year old girl. Yes, we are hormonal and weird and have all sorts of moods. ~~("OH NO SHE DIDN'T JUST SAY HORMONES *SPAZSMS*")~~. I get excited, I get depressed, I get indifferent, and I get whatever. When I'm obsessed, I mean: I. Am. Obsessed. You'll probably know this if you've known me long enough, or having caught me in an enthusiastic rant of some sort. Yes, I do fall out of these unnatural obsessions, but I move on to another one soon enough. Perhaps, even, with more vigour than the last. Most of you don't know the extent of what I obsess over, and you probably never will. You'd probably be better off not knowing, anyway.

I love my computer. I love the internet. I love free downloads. I probably know how to get anything off the web: whether it be information, music, or just... whatever tickles my fancy. It actually stuns me to think that some people don't know how to do this. (Can't download on a Mac computer? Honestly!)

Everyday, I download and listen to the Hamish and Andy podcast. It's like the religion I never had. I mostly listen to one twice, and some even thrice. I know it's sad, but it's a routine. I follow it.

In conversations, I am either really shy, really crazy, or really random. Actually, this probably applies to everyone. I love reading too much into what people say. It really amuses me to no end. Sometimes, I share these thoughts; sometimes, I harbour them as secrets. I store them in my mind as safe-keeping.

... I could go on for ages, but we might save that more another, less stressful, time.

By now you might be thinking: "God, what a complex human being."
Well, I've probably talked myself up loads just then. I'm completely average, I assure you. It's weird that I've actually typed up this post. Somehow it feels so much nicer posting this to nothing and no one, when actually anyone in the world could read it.

I'm sorry if you feel uncomfortable or weird or just WTF-ed. This is me, and I'm sorry if I surprised you. Actually... I'm not, really. It felt good to type this down. Maybe blogging is a kind of therapy. Kind of like diary-writing, except more public. Haha. Anyways, I'm sure you've already read more than you wanted to - about me, that is. I'm already regretting it. Here's to hoping that this post turns invisible... now!

Exams are approaching like a tidal wave in a storm riding a hurricane.
...Wow, and I've just discovered that I must have a thing for analogies which just don't make sense.

I've got to blog more often.

Oh, god...

2009-04-23T22:57:00.004+08:00

401 points, so you achieved position 38392 of 3339208 on the ranking list

You type 523 characters per minute
You have 98 correct words and
you have 1 wrong words

98 words

FFFFFFF- THIS IS WORTHY SPAM DAMMIT. 8D I CAN TOTALLY RULE THE WORLD NOW.
Top 1 percent! @A@
Okay, I'm a psycho.

Current goal: 100 words/min. Oh, yeah.

Edit: Also, woot for 300 profile views! Um. Celebrations? xD

I challenge you.

2009-04-19T08:32:00.003+08:00

337 points, so you achieved position 149306 of 3260885 on the ranking list


You type 462 characters per minute
You have 79 correct words and
you have 2 wrong words

79 words

So... I'm in the top, what, 4%? >:3
Let's get to 80w/m next time. ;D

"Hang your heart in lights above me."

2009-04-04T15:19:00.005+08:00

[There's some kind of light at the end
Stoned, forgetful, and then
I'm drinking what used to be sin
And touching the edge of her skin.]
you make me smile - blue october

My birthday was pretty cool. I got some weird cake, but as a present: an LCD screen for my computer!
8D!
It's 1920x1080. WTF. As big as our TV. a;lsdfjsfddklfhehe.♥

The Mozilla homepage on the screen is this:

small. >:O ~~Lol. It's a big deal for me.~~ /nerds

River cruise. I kind of don't want to goooo. D| I feel soooo lazy now. I WANT TO FINISH ENGLISH. YOSH. ~~*SHOT*~~ Because I set such high standards for the first batch of comprehension questions and essay I did. (He actually photocopied my essay to keep in his file. ~~Kind of creepy.~~) Damn.

(Humour me here. Because I suck at everything else. =A=)

I bought semi-high heels. I hope my feet will be okay tomorrow.

Dying of sheer epic-ness. D:

2009-03-28T10:59:00.005+09:00

O-oh, god. Today, epic manga is epic.
I ♥ D.GRAY-MAN. and Allen and Kanda and even Noah!Allen.
I don't think I've ever held my breath during an entire chapter. I swear I was close to hyperventilating by the end. .________.

~~IDK. IS IT POSSIBLE TO DIE OF SEXY? COS ALLEN KILLED ME.~~ 8D

After reading D.Gray-Man, Reborn! was alright. I totally cracked up at the shark's entrance, though, and psycho!Squalo riding it. :D

... Back to work now. =A=

baaack~ ;o

2009-03-15T17:55:00.005+09:00

Y HALO THAR.
Scared you? :O

So anyways, I thought I should make a post just to broadcast that I'm finally graduating to a Yellow belt in Taekwondo! WOO~ Well, if I pass grading, that is. xD MAYBE. But, hey, I found out that I got an 'A' rating for my tip-testing (the kind of in-class test just to see if you're fit for grading), it was on the board and all.

Yes. An 'A'YE. :3
What is that - my third 'A' for the year? xD ~~I'm disappointed.~~

[Hmm... A is good, right? It's not just what group you're in? Oh-no-fail. .__.;]

I've started to read more shounen manga. ~~The characters are so much more fun to slash.~~ I've never realised how interesting they can be. Now I realise how annoying I found the constant presence of lame girls in shoujo manga. xD
Okay, I kid, I kid. (Not really, though.) :D

~~"We are not girls. We are hot guys."~~

KATEKYO HITMAN REBORN!

Mmm. ♥ A manga where I actually like the main character. And the fights. WAO. xD

D.GRAY-MAN

askldfjsldfALLEN♥sldkfjsldfjKANDA. :'D I'm so glad this manga is back - even though I started reading it just after the mangaka finished with her break. :3

NABARI NO OU

Because the two main characters have the freaking sweetest relationship I have ever read in any manga. Something like "the purest form of love", no kidding. Chapter 50 just... killed me. I actually cried. >_> Ohgod. Whywhywhy.

<-- I'm telling ya - it's totally shounen! xD ~~Yeah, right. :)~~

CODE GEASS: LELOUCH OF THE REBELLION

I'm currently watching the anime on ABC2 8D Yes. DUBOMG. I really like Lelouch's character - the anti-hero. He's ~~a pimp~~ awesome, and he knows it. :D

[/End manga rant and weirdness.]

FINISHED JAPANESE.
What a chore. I wrote a solid 4 pages. FOUR. Of oral answers, and the majority of which I won't even remember on the day of the exam. Mmrrhggghh. :|

AND ART. Whut. I don't even understand anything about this supposed *REPORT* due on Thursday. I chose a really hard piece of artwork to do a Critical Study on, too. =__= Alchemy, transmutation, and hara-kiri, anyone?

MATHS: two words.
Don't. Want.

That's all.

Surge of static electricity
brought on by the fear of being seen
creeping up in silence on the battle scene.
Slow and slithering,
We stand still on fourth of July,
Numb to explosions that
that scream and light up the sky.
The City's Summer - The Honorary Title

For the heck of it...

2009-01-11T10:53:00.002+09:00

44% Geek
$5165.00

27%

77%

2,022,300How Many Germs Live On Your Keyboard?

Fun. 8D

the sims 3

2009-01-10T13:32:00.003+09:00

omg the sims 3 is set to be released 20th february. i'lldoanythinglaj;laskjdfsdflssalks!
D:
... birthday gift idea? ;D

my desperate heart is far too weak to run for you this long.

2008-12-30T10:09:00.008+09:00

Ha. <3

[So go past the lights and all the excuses.
You could have left, sincerely yours.
Don't you think it's obvious that I want to say more?
But anything too daring to say to you,
Will be said in this letter, then burned away,
So you never realize, I'm here.]
midnight highway - daphne loves derby.

These holidays are dragging on like foreveeeer. >_>;

Christmas was okay. We did something a little different for presents. My brothers and I were all given $50 to spend on gifts for each other.

Brothers: car-related toys and DIYs - $20
Mother: Necklace - $10
Dad: Battery-operated massage toy - $14.90
Fu. Not bad. I think they liked their gifts (kind of).

I received:
- "Japanese" foot and hands pamper pack. Lotion. Hm. Anyone actually bother with this stuff?
- How to Host a Murder Mystery kit. Useless after one use. Have to play with 7 other people... T_T
- Face cleanser from my older little brother. Ha-ha. What a clown. (Can't say I'm not using it, though.)
- 5 stackable spinning tops from younger little brother. I kind of found it fun.

(Now I know what you're thinking: "Wow, fascinating." Whatever. xD)

Anyway... SCHOOL REPOOORTS. :D I must say, I was sort of looking forward to reading mine. Overall, not too bad. I guess I could have done (a lot) worse. Including all the less-important - i.e. Christian Ed & Health - I managed to salvage 6 A's, and 10 B's. And the only subject I failed in was P.E. (Who would've thought?) No but, seriously, I don't think I deserved the one C and two D's. I actually tried.
(Maybe that was the problem.)

Two nights ago, was watching Howl's Moving Castle, wrapped in a red blanket. THEN THIS MOSQUITO CAME AND... now I can three humongous bites on my wrists. Two on my left and one on my right. Let me say that the singular one on my right hurts so much more. They have all grown to angry swells in a matter of one day. I even tried applying STOP ITCH Plus™ several times to no avail. Now it looks like I have a tumour-like welt on my wrist. Ew. (Cancer?! D:) How can one mosquito do so much damage?! I'm starting to think that I'm allergic to mosquitoes. No, like, hyper-allergic. (Since mostly everyone has minor allergies to mosquitoes: that's why they get that little itch and swelling.)

I'm getting addicted to The Sims again. If only life were as easy as gaining skill points, earning friends, and getting promoted. :(

2008-12-23T19:32:00.000+09:00

you make me smile, please stay for a while.

2008-12-14T16:55:00.006+09:00

(this was when i fell asleep last night.)

[You say
My broken heart becomes me,
I say
I'd sell it cheap to you]
lonely boy - black lab.

Yesterday I hobbled around the house mopingly pathetic because I think I pulled an entire muscle or something from doing taekwondo on Friday. I am so seriously unfit. It still hurts a bit today, too. Go figure. So, on Friday, B had to pair up with someone else again. (Again, I couldn't stop it.) This time, the loud boy wasn't there and, instead, she had to work with the self-proclaimed "Strongest Girl in Year 9". Lucky.

Mergh. Have nothing else to do. Maybe I'll start learning "The Idiot's Guide to C++". Hm. I could create a program to do simple Physics calculations like velocity, distance and time. :)

(No, I'm actually serious. Can't think of any other ideas.)

2008-12-12T11:53:00.004+09:00

(thinking of you.)

[I'm a puppet on your hand,
I'm that string that comes unwound
Kiss my lips, and I swear I'll fall apart
I took everything you are, and I wished upon a star
And you were there, and you filled my lonely heart.]
unwound - the real you.

Yesterday was one of the biggest workouts of my life.
First, had to watch Twilight. (I think I giggled at all the wrong moments.) I had to endure most of the girls' high squeals throughout the movie when Edward/any of the Cullens were on stage. Tried not to twitch in annoyance at Jacob's hair, tried not to pull a disgusted face at Edward's stiff acting and bodily movements. But, overall... not bad. Kind of what I expected after reading all the (mostly negative) reviews. Some scenes were pretty good, others were just lame. There's a healthy balance for you.

Taekwondo was just lksdfja;lsdfjssoimpossiblyhard. I just died. I walked in, unknowingly, and it turned out to be a "fitness" lesson - i.e. "hell". That woman made us do so many exercises without a break and most of the kicks we hadn't learnt yet. T_T I was mostly spacing out during the demonstrations and just randomly attempting kicks.

The hardest exercise we had to do was towards the end. It was called 30-30 or something, where you had to run 5 lengths of the room, do 5 push-ups and sit-ups, do another 5 lengths, then do 10 push-ups and sit-ups, then continue until you get to 30 push-ups and sit-ups. Us white-belts only got up to 20 push-ups and sit-ups, I think. (I think the lady felt sorry for us and just gave us 20 to do. How nice.) My arms ached so much and still, right now, I feel absolutely lethargic. OH, WELL. At least I suffered with others. ... xD

(Gah, Bonnie - I still feel guilty about pairing up with Li. [Even though he asked you first.] Next time, if we have to partner up again, I promise I will go with that weird, loud, out-spoken, "I'm-better-than-you-yeah-definitely" boy. Really. ♥)

i'd die for the black sunshine in her smile.

2008-12-08T10:43:00.008+09:00

[You're drop-dead bittersweet
I'm your imaginary friend
Your devastating daydream
You're my song that never ends
Don't ever... end]
you know who you are - e for explosion

Heee.♥ xD I feel sappy.

Last few days have kind of been up and down for me.
First, my Dad signed me up for Taekwondo (without my consent) for 6 months. I'm not sure how I feel about this. Then, some dude I didn't know, but felt oddly familiar with, told me I wasn't tough enough and to toughen up! But I'm sure I remember him from past Chinese classes being the one who sat with a short, stout 5th grader, and had prominent braces. So maybe he deserves this gig after all.

Then I broke a tile with my elbow on my first attempt.
HAHHAAHAAAA.
... hells yes.
I broke tiles with my hands as well, but that took a bit more trys. My hand felt inflamed. (And not in a good way, either.) ^^;

I felt like a ninja.
Totally.
Like how one of the instructors asked me why I wanted to learn Taekwondo in the first couple of lessons, and I said really confidently "Ninja," and nodded a lot. (I didn't want to be a killer. It feels icky to kill.)

Then I spent the whole weekend in pajamas. No joke.
But I'm going to a party today so... yay! ~~finally! haha. i has no life. .__.~~
I recently bought some socks to wear (my colour is black and white) so I drew this in one minute in Paint to show you:

:D Hey, not bad for one minute, right?
On the package, the model wore the socks way below her knees but, on me, it came up to above the knees. x__o; buh.

I'm probably never going to wear it again but, hey... good impulse purchase. xD

Edit: That's weird. My hit counter shows that people other than myself have been visiting here. Whoa. I thought blogs went extinct ages ago. :)

it cannot be explained any other way.

2008-12-03T17:52:00.004+09:00

I passed with a 'B' for my Piano exam Grade 2.
Oh, it's magic, all right.

*

Edit: I can't believe I missed this two nights ago! T_T

When Venus, Jupiter and the Moon formed a smiley face in Australia...

... And a frown in the U.S. :D

The face reminds me of "No-Face" from Spirited Away. 'Coz it's long like that. ♥ :)

[it takes a while to get over you.]

2008-12-02T19:29:00.005+09:00

[So smile right before you fall
And lay beside this mess and call it consequence
Somebody said that life isn't fair
When somebody else was saying a prayer]
bigger than love - my favourite highway♥

:(

*

Last day of school today. Felt really weird. Who else didn't know what was going on this morning? I swear most of the year was either just wandering the corridors, hanging out in small groups investigating this problem, or camping outside the Careers office. I told everyone that there were only two periods but nooo... everybody wanted to finish Sex and the City and have English. o_O; I don't think this day was even necessary because we had some weird "challenge" in Visual Arts and passed a parcel (I got a chocolate), and played the Maths game equivalent to Scrabble. (Li and I came last. It doesn't matter, we tried! xD) Anyways, got all my exams back yesterday. Today was just like a leftover.

So... yeah. Exams were alright. Managed to salvage three B's (SOSE, Biology, Chemistry) and two A's (Physics, Japanese). Not too bad? ...Dx ...DIDN'T FAIL BIOLOGY! lsdkfjsd;flasdlimpossible. :D

Next year: Physics, Chemistry, Japanese, Maths, English, Art.
Exams count (so far): 7 + Art?
NOOOOO.
not again.

(So. Speech Night tomorrow? y/n? n/n.)

and...

2008-11-27T16:35:00.004+09:00

Japan: B.L.B.♥!

2008-11-25T16:37:00.000+09:00

Aw. ~~i'll go on nerdy adventures with you. :'D?~~

maybe.

2008-11-24T17:24:00.001+09:00

so let's lock all the doors, there's nothing outside we need to see.

2008-11-23T18:57:00.004+09:00

1.
had a sleepover
stayed outside until 11, sitting around a light
on camp chairs (kind of like a secret cult meeting).
played truth or dare, leaned in and whispered
shrouded in darkness, and we felt like puppets attached
alone, to each other.

walked to the playground,
swung to the sky
wrote a secret message in a hole formed in limestone.
screamed because i felt too high.

2.
arms ached for days afterwards.
didn't know why because we only
climbed the railing and
ran back home.

was tempted to yell 'i'm naked!' but i didn't because
that would be lying and we would save that for a
truth or dare.

3.
i felt free.

4.
downloaded junk so that all the ads would be replaced by
pieces of art instead.
so now, instead of seeing 'IQ test' or 'love meter', i see
road cones sitting on benches and the words 'divorce $299'.

5.
wrote big japanese words on paper to remind myself.
i want them to barge into my brain and stay there.

6.
had a shower, got a huge dollop of shampoo in my eye.
(it was the glittery limited edition hairdresser brand, too. oh, poo.)
i smartly remembered to 'rinse it out immediately'.
finished. eye looked red, like the devil's, or a demon.
i savoured it for a few hours before it went away.
hm, different.

7.
studied for hours.
probably shouldn't have lost all of biology and chemistry semester one works.
and written this pointless post.

... fail.

*

"Watching the sky
Watching a painting coming to life
Shaping and shifting
Staying inside
It all goes it all goes by

A blanket unfolds
A blanket tonight
The pieces of gold
They light up your eyes
Now we're alone
Now we're alive."
come on, come out - a fine frenzy.